by Phoebe Preuss | Sep 22, 2026 | Chocolate manufacturers Melbourne, Uncategorized, Wellness Blogs
There are seasons when caring for others becomes so consuming that we quietly disappear from our own lives.
I returned from Western Australia carrying the fullness of choir camp and Yoga Fest, only to step immediately into another season of care. My partner was recovering from surgery. Half of our small team was away on carers’ leave. The family’s needs were swallowing me whole while also becoming part of the productivity trap…The needs around me were real and immediate, so I tuned myself entirely towards them.
Without noticing, I stopped listening for my own needs.
For a month, I tried to keep everything moving—our home, our team, Living Koko and the people I love. Eventually, the strain began to show. Things cracked. The light I am usually able to offer so freely became difficult to find within myself.
In that darkness, the mind can become the hardest algorithm to break.
The thoughts we feed become the thoughts we are shown again and again. When we are exhausted, the mind can keep returning us to fear, inadequacy and everything left undone. The harder we try to think our way out, the smaller the world can become.
I looked for distraction instead of balance. I kept moving because stillness meant hearing what was happening beneath the surface. Even active rest became another form of productivity – a walk with something to organise, a quiet moment used to answer messages, time away filled with thoughts of what needed doing next.
And caring for others became the most convincing form of distraction. It looked like love – and it was love – but it also allowed me to keep placing my own needs at the bottom of the list. I could tell myself I was resting from work while continuing to carry everyone around me.
There is a difference between pausing and truly resting. There is a difference between being needed and being well.
Finding our way back requires us to interrupt the pattern gently. To recognise that rest does not need to produce anything. It does not need to make us more efficient, more useful or better prepared to return to work. Sometimes rest is simply the place where we meet ourselves again.
This weight did not begin in a single month.
It has been almost a year since the fire in Samoa, and truthfully, it feels as though we have only started to emerge from the thickness of that. There is so much that happens behind the work people see: the damaged harvest, the interrupted supply, the rebuilding and the responsibility of continuing to support the families connected to our cacao.
Here in Melbourne, other pressures continued to gather. We added the words “gluten free” to our chocolate packaging to give our community greater clarity. That small act led to a change in our council classification and almost $9,000 in new compliance expenses during the first year, with approximately $5,000 in recurring costs each year thereafter. (I need to sell a lot of little chocolates to cover that one)
One thing rarely breaks us on its own. More often, it is the slow accumulation of things carried quietly. Sometimes its noticing that you don’t have capacity for anything of joy.
And then the Equinox arrives.
A moment when light and darkness meet. Not to defeat one another, but to share the sky.
This year, the Spring Equinox is not asking me to rush towards brightness or become the lively version of myself everyone recognises. It is inviting me to return gently – to notice where I have become depleted, where life has grown crowded and where I have forgotten to include myself among the people deserving of care.
How do we find our way back to ourselves?
Perhaps we begin by accepting that we have not disappeared. We are still there beneath the duties, the exhaustion and the many roles we have been trying to hold. Returning does not require a dramatic transformation. It may begin with something very small: a proper meal, bare feet on the earth, an honest conversation, a quiet cup of cacao, or allowing someone else to carry what we can no longer hold alone.
In the Pacific, our relationship with land teaches us that renewal is not hurried. A cacao tree cannot be forced into fruiting before its time. The soil must be nourished. Branches must be pruned. Light and air must be allowed through. What is damaged must be tended, and what has finished its season must be released.
I am not so different.
Sometimes returning to ourselves means asking what needs pruning.
I have been asking myself – Which responsibilities are truly mine? What am I carrying from habit, guilt or love that has become too heavy? Where have I mistaken endurance for strength?
Balance is not a perfect division between work and rest, darkness and light, giving and receiving. It is a living relationship between them. Like the Equinox, it asks us to notice when one has overtaken the other—and to make room again.
I am learning that care must travel in both directions. I can love my family, tend our business and remain committed to our cacao-growing communities without abandoning myself in the process. I am part of that circle of care too.
Spring also marks the return of our Pasifika Movement and Cacao Spring and Summer Series.
In the middle of business pressures, personal responsibilities and the chaos unfolding across the world, these gatherings create a rare space where I can give and receive at the same time. I arrive to share my culture, movement and cacao—but I am also restored by every person who enters the circle.
We meet people from across the world and invite them to experience Pacific Island culture through somatic healing, movement, cacao and time on Country. We gather in nature, move with nature and remember that we are nature—not separate from it, not required to perform for it, simply part of its rhythm.
For me, these gatherings are a full realignment. They bring me back into my body, into community and into relationship with the living world. They remind me that healing does not always happen alone. Sometimes we find our way back to ourselves in a circle, moving and breathing beside others.
So this spring, I am beginning again—not by leaping forward, but by returning to my roots. By moving slowly enough to hear what my body and spirit have been trying to say. By remembering that asking for help is not failure, rest is not something we must earn, and even the person who usually carries the light is allowed to need shelter from the dark.
The Equinox reminds us that darkness is not the end of the story.
The light returns little by little.
And perhaps that is how we return to ourselves too.
by Phoebe Preuss | Aug 18, 2026 | Chocolate manufacturers Melbourne, Uncategorized, Wellness Blogs
Yes. Like many plants, cacao can naturally contain trace amounts of metals that occur in soil and the wider environment.
That doesn’t mean cacao is unsafe.
It means that where cacao is grown, how it is cultivated and how it is tested matter.
At Living Koko, we believe you should know not only where your cacao comes from, but also what is in it.
So we recently sent our Head & Heart Drinking Cacao to an independent laboratory for testing for four metals:
- Cadmium
- Lead
- Mercury
- Nickel
The results gave us a clearer picture of our cacao — and we’re sharing the actual numbers with you.
Our cacao heavy metal testing results
Our Head & Heart sample was tested by Symbio Laboratories in Melbourne using ICP-MS analysis.
Here are the results:
| Metal |
Result |
| Cadmium (Cd) |
0.13 mg/kg |
| Lead (Pb) |
0.05 mg/kg |
| Mercury (Hg) |
<0.01 mg/kg |
| Nickel (Ni) |
7.91 mg/kg |
These are results from the particular sample submitted to the laboratory. They are not a claim that every batch of cacao will have exactly the same composition.
And that distinction matters.
Food testing is about measuring what is actually there — not making promises that nature cannot guarantee.
Why are heavy metals found in cacao?
The term “heavy metals” can sound frightening.
But some metals occur naturally in soil, water and plants.
Cacao trees absorb minerals and trace elements from the soil as they grow. Cadmium, in particular, can be taken up by cacao plants and stored in the leaves and seeds. Research into cacao has shown that soil and growing conditions can influence the amount of cadmium that ends up in cacao products.
This is one reason cacao origin matters.
Cacao isn’t simply a commodity that exists in a vacuum.
It comes from somewhere.
It grows in particular soil.
It is influenced by climate, farming practices and the surrounding environment.
For Living Koko, our cacao journey begins with farmers and cacao trees in Samoa.
That connection to place is part of what makes our cacao special — and part of why responsible testing matters.
Cadmium in cacao: what did our testing show?
Cadmium is one of the metals that receives particular attention in cocoa and chocolate because cacao can naturally accumulate it from the soil.
Australia and New Zealand set a maximum level of 0.5 mg/kg for cadmium in chocolate and cocoa products under the Food Standards Code.
Our Head & Heart result was:
0.13 mg/kg
That’s approximately 74% below the Australian/New Zealand maximum level.
The European Union also regulates cadmium in cocoa products. Its maximum level for cocoa powder placed on the market for the final consumer, including cocoa powder used in drinking chocolate, is 0.60 mg/kg.
Our result of 0.13 mg/kg is approximately 78% below that EU maximum. (how awesome is that!!!)
That’s a result we’re pleased to see.
But we’re not going to turn one test into a grand claim that our cacao is somehow “free from heavy metals”.
Because it isn’t.
And that’s not how responsible food testing works.
What about lead in cacao?
Our lead result was:
0.05 mg/kg
Lead is an environmental contaminant that food producers take seriously.
We tested for it because we want to understand the broader contaminant profile of our cacao, rather than looking at only one number.
Our laboratory measured 0.05 mg/kg of lead in the Head & Heart sample.
We think there’s value in simply telling you the result.
No dramatic headline.
No “zero heavy metals” claim.
Just the number.
What does this mean in a normal serving?
Our Head & Heart cacao tested at 0.05 mg/kg of lead. The European Union sets a maximum permitted level of 0.60 mg/kg for cocoa powder sold to consumers, including cocoa powder used in drinking chocolate.
Our result is therefore well below the EU maximum — approximately 92% lower than the permitted level. This is something massive to celebrate!!!
Looking at it from a normal serving perspective, a 30 g serving of Head & Heart contains approximately 1.5 micrograms (µg) of lead. The EU limit of 0.60 mg/kg would correspond to 18 µg of lead in a 30 g serving.
Lead is an environmental contaminant, so we don’t claim that our cacao contains “zero lead” — our testing found a small, measurable amount. Instead, we think the useful thing is to show you the actual result and put it into context: 0.05 mg/kg in the product, or approximately 1.5 µg in a 30 g serving, compared with the EU maximum of 0.60 mg/kg for drinking chocolate.
No dramatic headline. No “zero heavy metals” claim. Just the number, the standard, and the context.
What about mercury in cacao?
Our mercury result was reported as:
<0.01 mg/kg
This means the mercury level was below the laboratory’s reporting limit of 0.01 mg/kg. It does not mean that mercury was necessarily completely absent — simply that it was below the level the laboratory could reliably report as a quantified result.
To put this into the context of a normal serving, if mercury were present at the laboratory’s reporting limit of 0.01 mg/kg, a 30 g serving would contain less than 0.0003 mg — or less than 0.3 micrograms (µg) — of mercury.
Unlike lead, there isn’t a specific EU maximum level for mercury in cocoa or drinking chocolate that we can use as a direct comparison. So rather than creating a misleading “safe limit” comparison, we’re sticking with what our laboratory actually reported.
Mercury: <0.01 mg/kg.
A 30 g serving: <0.3 µg.
Again, we’re sharing the laboratory’s wording rather than turning a below-reporting-limit result into a stronger claim than the science supports.
What about nickel in cacao?
A few weeks ago I had a wonderful community member ask us about Nickel at a Melbourne instore tasting, this isn’t usually something we test as chocolate makers but because he was monitoring this due to heavy metals in his own body we decided to go out and get this checked with our labs again to understand what our snapshot is right now.
Nickel was the highest of the four metals tested:
7.91 mg/kg
This is where some important context is needed.
There isn’t a simple Australia/New Zealand or EU maximum level for nickel in cacao equivalent to the specific cadmium limits above.
So we don’t think it would be responsible to invent a “safe” or “unsafe” threshold and present it as a regulatory standard.
Nickel occurs naturally in many plant foods.
The concentration in a food is only one part of understanding exposure. How much of the food is consumed also matters.
For us, this result means monitoring, learning and continuing to test — not fear.
What does this mean in a normal serving?
At the tested concentration of 7.9 mg of nickel per kilogram, a 30 g serving of cacao contains approximately 0.237 mg (237 micrograms) of nickel. For context, the 1 mg (1,000 microgram) adult upper intake level sometimes referenced in scientific literature represents a general upper intake level for adults for soluble nickel salts — it is not a legal limit for nickel in food. A 30 g serving of our cacao therefore contains approximately 24% of that 1 mg reference value. Nickel occurs naturally in many plant foods, including cacao, nuts, legumes and grains, and only a fraction of dietary nickel is absorbed into the bloodstream. For the general population, nickel exposure is best considered in the context of overall dietary intake, while people with nickel sensitivity or allergy may need individual dietary guidance.
Is ceremonial cacao safe?
This is a question we hear more and more as ceremonial cacao becomes increasingly popular.
The honest answer is that “ceremonial cacao” is not, by itself, a scientific guarantee of safety or a particular contaminant level.
What matters is the cacao itself, its source, how it has been processed, the product formulation and appropriate food-safety testing.
At Living Koko, we don’t believe a beautiful story about cacao should replace good food science.
We want both.
The story matters.
The farmers matter.
The land matters.
And the testing matters too.
Why testing cacao matters
Cacao is a plant.
Plants grow in soil.
Soil contains naturally occurring minerals and trace elements.
That is simply part of agriculture.
The question isn’t whether we can make nature disappear.
The question is whether we understand what we’re working with.
That’s why independent testing is valuable.
It gives us information we cannot get from looking at a cacao bean, smelling it or tasting it.
And it allows us to make decisions based on evidence rather than assumption.
Our laboratory report also makes an important point: where samples are supplied by the customer, the results apply to the samples as received and responsibility for representative sampling rests with the customer.
For us, that means one laboratory report is a snapshot, not the end of the story.
We want to build a longer history of testing across representative batches of our cacao.
From Samoan soil to your cup
There is something beautiful about knowing where your food comes from.
Our cacao begins with farmers in Samoa.
It grows from the earth.
It is harvested, fermented and processed.
And eventually, it becomes something very simple:
A warm cup of cacao between your hands.
That journey deserves care at every stage.
For us, ethical cacao isn’t only about the relationship between farmer and buyer.
It is also about stewardship.
Of the land.
Of the cacao.
Of the people who grow it.
And of the people who drink it.
Our approach to cacao testing
We don’t believe in using science as a marketing trick.
We believe in using it as a tool for better making.
That means:
We test.
We measure.
We learn.
We keep improving.
And when we have information that our customers may reasonably want to know, we’d rather share the actual numbers than hide behind vague language.
Our latest Head & Heart results showed:
Cadmium — 0.13 mg/kg
Lead — 0.05 mg/kg
Mercury — <0.01 mg/kg
Nickel — 7.91 mg/kg
Our cadmium result is comfortably below the Australian/New Zealand maximum level for chocolate and cocoa products and below the EU maximum for cocoa powder and drinking chocolate.
And that’s worth celebrating.
Not because it means our work is finished.
But because it gives us another piece of evidence that the care we put into our cacao is heading in the right direction.
Good cacao should taste beautiful.
But we believe it should also be made with care.
From Samoan soil to your cup.
That’s Living Koko.
